flashback

the small hotel in Lisboa, and the Oriente Estacion when with the Calatrava construction...and a small restaurant at the sea side...obrigado....when we were eating you were asking me if I would go with you to Barcelona

on the plane I was reading the spanish revista and you smiled saying i have a good accent...

the fotos in Cintra, made with a mobile, I guess I never was so bloody smiling before...

your flat in Reading...and the little lights in the kitchen I liked so much...

tortilla which you were making for me just the night before leaving to Bcn, just beacuse I wanted to...

the tired we were just after we were having sex for the first time

the cold night and you in a black shirt saying that you love me

the first kiss

the look when we were sharing the Ben and Jerry icecreams in Alicias kitchen at Williams street

the first text messaage from you : you said you would like to play piano for me

the pink chicken

cartoon fingers

the smell of you in the bed when u already left

anthony hamilton´s southern comfort which was remembering of your every smile

the flower you draw on a piece of paper and put to my bag before i left...

sunshine song...

the phone calls every night which were everything that mattered during the whole day

more phone calls

your naughty words which were making me crazy

our own online sex. the first and the last

our cow

24hours which i send to my little boy for birthday

candles and roses in white Barcelona flat

croquetas and ensaladilla russa from the little place Consell de Cent

the terraza and little bathroom

your colonia

your black shirt

your mouth

a kiss

the big Bcn flat

the morning kiss for you every day

the cow message

the little misiu sleeping with me

me being pesada and wanting to hug you every night

sex

missing you during your tenerife trips

shivers every time you were back

your first video

shake your ass




i remember so many details
i can go on for pages and pages and pages

but it hurts
so much

i want to forget you please...
i cant go on like that no more
i am going crazy

mi, what should i do
what should i do if i miss you so much, still even when it does not make sens

mimi