NOTHING

I am dying.
The memories are killing me.
The good turns into bad.
My imagination is playing tricks on me.
I am imagining him with someone else and I am going furious.
Completly mad.
That kind of pain doesnt have and end and cannot be eased.
My lips, my body, my eyes only joined with his, only compatible with his.
If I dont kiss him I dont want to kiss anyone.
If I dont feel the smell of his warm skin in the bed, I always want to sleep alone.
If I dont look in his eyes I dont want to look in eyes of anyone.
From the very first time when I sow him its like that.
From the very first time he kissed me I knew I always want to kiss only him.
Its like all the others on earth dissapeared forever, for good.
I miss it so badly.
I miss it every night he is not with me.
I try to remember his smell, his touch , his voice.
But at the same time it hurts.
So badly.
I cant stand it.
He doesnt understand.
He never understood how much I loved him.
He was always unsure of me wanting only him.
I would die if anyone else would ever touch me.
Why cant he see it, why cant he understand.
I am his.
My body is his.
Only he can touch only he can kiss.
It was always like that, although he did not want it.
I was always his,,although he was pushing me away.

I am dying.
Slowly.